This is Life and I'm Contented About It...

*Guitar strumming, Drums rolling* SING:

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"I have, the time of my life, no I've never felt this way before. Yes I swear, it's the truth and I owe it all to you..." 


I felt so happy all the way, trying to forget everything, the hurts and despairs, the sacrifices and the TRUTH. You know, contentment is naturally accepting whatever life is giving you. Contentment is irresistible and you can't say that every little thing that you've got that you would never be contented on it.


Life itself is giving you chances to strike one more time again. With the highest voltage that you could ever give in and no one will judge you nor gonna stop you. Because they knew you but not your story.
As what my friend said, "Life is sometimes, Wow I did it! But sometimes, okay it's not my turn yet."

ANGELIQUE.

I don't see what I have to offer...

When I feel that days and nights are not good to me, I know that there's something deep or outside me is not at ease. I kept on listening to my heart pounding and it always skips a beat, weird. I don't know if what does this thing means. Because every time I felt like this, something is really happening.

I can't ignore this hidden emotion that I want to burst. I wanna give up. But I'm pity of the ones I love. The trust that they've given me, the love that never ceases, especially their support, not only financially, but physically and emotionally. 

I can't be tough and I can't be strong every time. I wanna be alone for now. I'm finding silence in my heart, my body, my soul and my mind. I want to feel the breath of the earth surpassing my veins, the wind's blowing off of me that made my soul flew all the way. 

I want to find my self again. The Angelique that my friends always says that who's strong enough, the one who never gives up. The one who can never be lifted up by the strongest wind.  

I'm feeling so lost right now in this world that was once I knew that was beautiful and worth living. Life is not very easy to be played of and I can assure you that.

Where's your hand?

I need someone's palm right now. I need to feel someone who could bare with me in this situation. I need to hold on tight. I MUST BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO FIGHT FOR IT.


Emotions are mixing, mashing up on me. Stabbing me on the back. Why is this happening? I'm full of unanswered questions that I know only someone could answer. Honestly, I don't even know how to fight for it. The courage and strength are all flying behind me. I can't even write a good sentence for me to start this post, and I don't know how to end it.


Maybe this is just apart of life's challenges. These challenges for me are there maybe to help make it through. 

A big W.H.A.T...

It's almost one month after our break-up with my boyfriend, but I'm still confused what is his true motive. He's feelin' like we're still together. I felt very awkward inside the class because they don't really even know what's happening between us two. Only some of them knows. 


But why do he's still acting like a boyfriend? Sometimes I felt nut, and I really don't know why. Actually, I still do love him. But the fact that he choose the other instead of me, what's the reason behind all these things are happening? What's his real purpose?


I keep on asking him the same question everyday about this weirdness that I felt every time he's beside me. And you know what's hes answer? He said, "Because you're my everything." And a big w.h.a.t in my f***ing mind! It leave's strange things in my mind that makes me not to sleep sometimes. 


I have a lot of plans to the both of us. But now, I'm losing hope. Because I'm losing the one whom I knew that who could help me make it. Sigh...

An ALL SOUL'S DAY EXAM...

Today is ALL SOULS DAY. People should be celebrating it their loved ones who have been dead, giving them time and privacy, praying and a reunion with the family. 
But wait! I'm confused here. Why aren't we having a holiday? We got a DAMN EXAM! W**.


I already missed having trick-or-treat thing when I'm still in my hometown, eating in above the tomb of my grandmother (isn't it scary? HAHA!), playing cards, talking with my cousins, and so on. 


I'm missing my family so much that I want to go home already. I wanna hug and kiss them. They were my inspiration why I'm fulfilling my dreams, why I have my goals, and why did I do this. 


This is all for my first post in the November. :) Till next time kiddies. 


P.S.
Since it's November, I'm changing my font to Georgia. 


ANGELIQUE.

Day 30- A picture of yourself of this day and 5 good things happened since you started the challenge

Today is the last day of my 30 Day Blog Challenge. This challenge will be my most memorable posts that I can't even believe that I make it! Phew, it's great and I felt so proud of my self that I've become responsible. My friends are the reason why I made this blog. I'm thankful for all your support to me, the help and the love from all of you guys! 


So here's my picture of this day:

Good and Bad things happened since I started this challenge. But from all of those, the good won the game. And here's the 5 good things that happened since I started the challenge:

1. I've handled the problems that came by.

2. I've became a mature person every day.

3. I learned how to value my self.

4. I'm not alone. You we're not alone. Choose and love your friends, because they're one in a million.

5. Lastly, don't forget to thank God every day for giving you strength, courage and his love that never ceases. Don't forget him if you have problems, because his the solver and the greatest provider. 

Day 29- 3 Wishes

Children have their own wishes for themselves especially during Christmas. Adults have too! Here are my three wishes:


1. To have my own restaurant before I get married.


2. To bring my parents to Paris, Rome, and Vatican.


3. To become a successful chef and to have a loving family.


Wishes are made to come true. So friends, be careful what you wish for!