Long and Winding Journey...

At last! I had a chance to talk again about my lifeline! 


Well, well, well. For TWO weeks of being busy for the school's event, I felt so relieved that I knew the activity was very successful in spite of all the troubles came up. I was very thankful for all the persons that were there who cooperated and give their undying efforts especially our Student Council President, who have organized the activity. 
Oh! Before I forgot, the school's activity is called "Dinner and Dance" which is done yearly. The said activity is done to make the students be acquainted with each other. It is may be Senior, Junior or Freshman, or an Ex-student. The theme of the activity was "The 70's." Oh Yeah!


So here's what I wore:

Do I look like the 70's? Hell. It's like I'll gonna have a night out with friends at the disco. Heee.

Too much of the Dinner and Dance fever. I'm very proud to say that I'm a student of Asian Tourism International College. 

Lalalala...

November 25, 2011. It's the first time that I met my friend and luckily it's her 20th birthday. It's the first time that we talked and share a lot of things especially or BREAK UP's with our boyfies. 

Weird as I will differentiate it. Both of us were chased, and both of our boyfriends got new girlfriends. See? It fascinates me sometimes if I'll keep on thinking that those things were happening right now. Do they realized their lost? Or the demons were with them to not let us move on? 

How I wish that the past never ends. The day when I thought that I already have him. The day when I already get to know him more. Though sometimes we fought, but we know how to handle those times. I wanna cry sometime when the thing suddenly cross in my mind and I am bewildered again. 

I become weak every time I bid goodbye to him. It's never been easy for me to communicate and hear his voice when I'm with him. I felt jealousy to those who were having a strong and balanced relationship. Even though, not all things are ended happily ever after, but once in their life they learn how to build a relationship that someday, it'll gonna last forever. 

Problems came up... and now, I felt the world is crushing down on me again. I'm bringing forces that burdened me every time I walk, talk or face to people.

Thank God, for giving me a chance to laugh out all those problems, for giving me the courage and strength to continue my journey. God never ceases his love for us, through ups and downs of our daily life. He is there whenever we call.

A big W.H.A.T...

It's almost one month after our break-up with my boyfriend, but I'm still confused what is his true motive. He's feelin' like we're still together. I felt very awkward inside the class because they don't really even know what's happening between us two. Only some of them knows. 


But why do he's still acting like a boyfriend? Sometimes I felt nut, and I really don't know why. Actually, I still do love him. But the fact that he choose the other instead of me, what's the reason behind all these things are happening? What's his real purpose?


I keep on asking him the same question everyday about this weirdness that I felt every time he's beside me. And you know what's hes answer? He said, "Because you're my everything." And a big w.h.a.t in my f***ing mind! It leave's strange things in my mind that makes me not to sleep sometimes. 


I have a lot of plans to the both of us. But now, I'm losing hope. Because I'm losing the one whom I knew that who could help me make it. Sigh...

I wish I could...

There were sorts of things that I've always been wishing of especially when it comes to my lover. I've been like this since the day that I met him and I don't know if he did something to me that he turned my world UPSIDE DOWN! In this post, I indicated some of my wishes that someday I'm hoping that it will be given to me.

I wish I could be more stronger to handle my emotions.

I wish he will listen to me.

I wish he will be more be motivated.

I wish he is there to listen what's inside me now.

I wish he has a lot of time for me to laugh and cry.

I wish he could understand a girl's feelings.

I wish we could sing again together.

I wish we could take more pictures.

I wish he will stop smoking for me.

I wish has plans for us.

I wish he learns how to defend me.

I wish he will pick me up when I fall down.

I wish he will stop making jokes that aren't funny.

I wish he could be more like me even if I'm a girl.

I wish we could see the stars again and count them.

I wish we will be more stronger.

I wish he will act more manly.

and...

I wish we will be growing old together. 

Well oh well, it's only just wishes right? But I'm hoping in it. 

:)

Angelique.

A Real B.O.Y.F.R.I.E.N.D

Most girls were dreaming of an ideal, responsible, and a humble boyfriend. For me a real boyfriend is like this: (I've already encountered SOME of it)


A REAL BOYFRIEND (Just read this, it will make a difference.)

If only everyone could see this and understand it.

>When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

>When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go

>When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

>When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

>When she ignores you
Give her your attention

>When she pulls away
Pull her back

>When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

>When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

>When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

>When she's scared
Protect her

>When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

>When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

>When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

>When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

>When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

>When she grabs at your hands
Hold hers and play with her fingers

>When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

>When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

>When she looks at you in your eyes
don't look away until she does

>When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers

>When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's important.
- Don't talk about other girls around her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"


Am I right? So, girls do it! GO!










Angelique.