Every now and Then...

I know that this year have never been so good to me. I want to correct all those mistakes that life have given me all throughout this year. I know that there's someone out there who was willing to accept and be there with me as a good partner. 


I'm home. In my hometown. I was so surprised knowing  that my place improved more than it would be. It was also so good that someone will see you in the airport and it's one of the most important persons in your life; parents and best friend. 


I want to grab this opportunity to thank all the people who's with me through my ups and downs. My classmates, friends, and especially my family for their never ending support for me. 


Merry Christmas folks! :')

First things first...

Hello DECEMBER! Wow! The long awaited month had finally come. Today, as apart of the new era, I would make this day meaningful and memorable. Today also is my second exam paper in which I do much effort especially in the given assignment. Blessings are given and be counted as priceless. 


Now, I am ready to face whatever the challenges that life may gave to me. I know my redeemer will help me make through it. I love you Lord.


P.S.
It's just a short post to welcome my first post for the first day of December. I don't want to miss the opportunity. :)


ANGELIQUE.

Sometimes it last in love, but sometimes it hurts instead...

"Nothing compares

no worries, or cares,

Regrets and mistakes they're

memories made.

Who would have known how

bittersweet this would taste."

Oh what a day. I still got two exams to pass. And there's something happened that what I feared about. I don't wanna be mean in the first place, bit the thing that made me embarrassed was that, someone made a s**t around. It's like, WOW! Who asked you to send me a message? I'm not that coward to not reply in your message. 

I'm just trying to be nice and be smooth. I just want you to handle it without harming anybody else. I know he chooses you and I accept the fact and accepted you. I'm not as perfect as you think. 

One advice for you. "Hold on to the things that you know you can't have it back. Don't waste the time that you're together. It's the greatest opportunity that God gave to the both of you."

ANGELIQUE.

Do I have to?

"Don't wanna close the door, 

don't wanna give up on it. 

Don't wanna fight no more,

 we'll find a way around it.

 Where's the love we had?

 We can make it last..." 

It's gonna be this time that'll I got to go, and move out from this curse. It's not normal, I've become so stupid. They don't know how much the burden I'm carrying.

From now on, I'll just go with the flow, I know someone out there when I'm ready to love again, he will come and bring a lasting happiness to the both of us. I'm not closing my heart to anybody else in this world. I just accept why are this things were happening. It's not also right to use someone else just to forget about someone. This is just a lesson to be learned once again. It's a lifetime lesson that will stock in your mind forever.

I know GOD has his own plans for me, and it is for the better. I know GOD won't give us burdens in life that we can't solve or we can't recover. He is always there to guide us in our daily lives and protecting us. He showed upon us his never ending love. 

ANGELIQUE.

Greatest Gift...

Jesus said to his disciples:

"Be watchful! Be alert!"

For God never fails us to tell us first before anything else does. He gives his never ending love for us and carry our burdens. God always finds a way to lead us into the right path and protect us from all temptations.

He always tell us be wise everyday. So that temptation won't dwell in our soul and mind.

REFLECTION:

Lord, give us the knowledge to conquer the daily consequences and challenges that we may encounter within our journey. Help us to motivate our selves by giving us wisdom and courage everyday. Lord, I am sinful and unworthy to receive the blessings that you gave us. Help me to repent all those sins and deliver me from evil. 

Amen.

ANGELIQUE.

Long and Winding Journey...

At last! I had a chance to talk again about my lifeline! 


Well, well, well. For TWO weeks of being busy for the school's event, I felt so relieved that I knew the activity was very successful in spite of all the troubles came up. I was very thankful for all the persons that were there who cooperated and give their undying efforts especially our Student Council President, who have organized the activity. 
Oh! Before I forgot, the school's activity is called "Dinner and Dance" which is done yearly. The said activity is done to make the students be acquainted with each other. It is may be Senior, Junior or Freshman, or an Ex-student. The theme of the activity was "The 70's." Oh Yeah!


So here's what I wore:

Do I look like the 70's? Hell. It's like I'll gonna have a night out with friends at the disco. Heee.

Too much of the Dinner and Dance fever. I'm very proud to say that I'm a student of Asian Tourism International College. 

Lalalala...

November 25, 2011. It's the first time that I met my friend and luckily it's her 20th birthday. It's the first time that we talked and share a lot of things especially or BREAK UP's with our boyfies. 

Weird as I will differentiate it. Both of us were chased, and both of our boyfriends got new girlfriends. See? It fascinates me sometimes if I'll keep on thinking that those things were happening right now. Do they realized their lost? Or the demons were with them to not let us move on? 

How I wish that the past never ends. The day when I thought that I already have him. The day when I already get to know him more. Though sometimes we fought, but we know how to handle those times. I wanna cry sometime when the thing suddenly cross in my mind and I am bewildered again. 

I become weak every time I bid goodbye to him. It's never been easy for me to communicate and hear his voice when I'm with him. I felt jealousy to those who were having a strong and balanced relationship. Even though, not all things are ended happily ever after, but once in their life they learn how to build a relationship that someday, it'll gonna last forever. 

Problems came up... and now, I felt the world is crushing down on me again. I'm bringing forces that burdened me every time I walk, talk or face to people.

Thank God, for giving me a chance to laugh out all those problems, for giving me the courage and strength to continue my journey. God never ceases his love for us, through ups and downs of our daily life. He is there whenever we call.

This is Life and I'm Contented About It...

*Guitar strumming, Drums rolling* SING:

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"I have, the time of my life, no I've never felt this way before. Yes I swear, it's the truth and I owe it all to you..." 


I felt so happy all the way, trying to forget everything, the hurts and despairs, the sacrifices and the TRUTH. You know, contentment is naturally accepting whatever life is giving you. Contentment is irresistible and you can't say that every little thing that you've got that you would never be contented on it.


Life itself is giving you chances to strike one more time again. With the highest voltage that you could ever give in and no one will judge you nor gonna stop you. Because they knew you but not your story.
As what my friend said, "Life is sometimes, Wow I did it! But sometimes, okay it's not my turn yet."

ANGELIQUE.

I don't see what I have to offer...

When I feel that days and nights are not good to me, I know that there's something deep or outside me is not at ease. I kept on listening to my heart pounding and it always skips a beat, weird. I don't know if what does this thing means. Because every time I felt like this, something is really happening.

I can't ignore this hidden emotion that I want to burst. I wanna give up. But I'm pity of the ones I love. The trust that they've given me, the love that never ceases, especially their support, not only financially, but physically and emotionally. 

I can't be tough and I can't be strong every time. I wanna be alone for now. I'm finding silence in my heart, my body, my soul and my mind. I want to feel the breath of the earth surpassing my veins, the wind's blowing off of me that made my soul flew all the way. 

I want to find my self again. The Angelique that my friends always says that who's strong enough, the one who never gives up. The one who can never be lifted up by the strongest wind.  

I'm feeling so lost right now in this world that was once I knew that was beautiful and worth living. Life is not very easy to be played of and I can assure you that.

A big W.H.A.T...

It's almost one month after our break-up with my boyfriend, but I'm still confused what is his true motive. He's feelin' like we're still together. I felt very awkward inside the class because they don't really even know what's happening between us two. Only some of them knows. 


But why do he's still acting like a boyfriend? Sometimes I felt nut, and I really don't know why. Actually, I still do love him. But the fact that he choose the other instead of me, what's the reason behind all these things are happening? What's his real purpose?


I keep on asking him the same question everyday about this weirdness that I felt every time he's beside me. And you know what's hes answer? He said, "Because you're my everything." And a big w.h.a.t in my f***ing mind! It leave's strange things in my mind that makes me not to sleep sometimes. 


I have a lot of plans to the both of us. But now, I'm losing hope. Because I'm losing the one whom I knew that who could help me make it. Sigh...

An ALL SOUL'S DAY EXAM...

Today is ALL SOULS DAY. People should be celebrating it their loved ones who have been dead, giving them time and privacy, praying and a reunion with the family. 
But wait! I'm confused here. Why aren't we having a holiday? We got a DAMN EXAM! W**.


I already missed having trick-or-treat thing when I'm still in my hometown, eating in above the tomb of my grandmother (isn't it scary? HAHA!), playing cards, talking with my cousins, and so on. 


I'm missing my family so much that I want to go home already. I wanna hug and kiss them. They were my inspiration why I'm fulfilling my dreams, why I have my goals, and why did I do this. 


This is all for my first post in the November. :) Till next time kiddies. 


P.S.
Since it's November, I'm changing my font to Georgia. 


ANGELIQUE.

30 Day Blog Challenge

Thank you GOOGLE for helping search this thing. Well, I've been so interested about this 30 Day Blog challenge that I can't wait for my first post for tomorrow as my day 1. I'm so much impressed of those people who have the guts and being so enthusiastically blogging for 30 days! Maybe I could be responsible like them too! So Angelique, you can do it! :)


Here is the 30 day blog challenge:


Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts
Day 2: Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3: Your first love
Day 4: Your parents
Day 5: A song to match your mood
Day 6: A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7: Favorite movies
Day 8: A place you've traveled to
Day 9: A favorite picture of your bestfriend
Day 10: Something you're afraid of
Day 11: Favorite tv shows
Day 12: Something you don't leave the house without
Day 13: Goals
Day 14: A picture of you last year? - how have you changed?
Day 15: Bible verse
Day 16: Dream house
Day 17: Something you're looking forward to
Day 18: Favorite place to eat
Day 19: Something you miss
Day 20: Nicknames
Day 21: Favorite Picture of yourself ALL TIME Why?
Day 22: What's in your purse?
Day 23: Favorite Movie
Day 24: Something you've learned
Day 25: Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26: Your Dream Wedding
Day 27: Original Photo of the city you live in
Day 28: Something that stresses you out
Day 29: 3 Wishes
Day 30: A picture of yourself of this day and 5 good things happened since you started the challenge


Let's get it on! Nyahaha.










Angelique.

I wish I could...

There were sorts of things that I've always been wishing of especially when it comes to my lover. I've been like this since the day that I met him and I don't know if he did something to me that he turned my world UPSIDE DOWN! In this post, I indicated some of my wishes that someday I'm hoping that it will be given to me.

I wish I could be more stronger to handle my emotions.

I wish he will listen to me.

I wish he will be more be motivated.

I wish he is there to listen what's inside me now.

I wish he has a lot of time for me to laugh and cry.

I wish he could understand a girl's feelings.

I wish we could sing again together.

I wish we could take more pictures.

I wish he will stop smoking for me.

I wish has plans for us.

I wish he learns how to defend me.

I wish he will pick me up when I fall down.

I wish he will stop making jokes that aren't funny.

I wish he could be more like me even if I'm a girl.

I wish we could see the stars again and count them.

I wish we will be more stronger.

I wish he will act more manly.

and...

I wish we will be growing old together. 

Well oh well, it's only just wishes right? But I'm hoping in it. 

:)

Angelique.

A Real B.O.Y.F.R.I.E.N.D

Most girls were dreaming of an ideal, responsible, and a humble boyfriend. For me a real boyfriend is like this: (I've already encountered SOME of it)


A REAL BOYFRIEND (Just read this, it will make a difference.)

If only everyone could see this and understand it.

>When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

>When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go

>When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

>When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

>When she ignores you
Give her your attention

>When she pulls away
Pull her back

>When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

>When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

>When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

>When she's scared
Protect her

>When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

>When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

>When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

>When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

>When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

>When she grabs at your hands
Hold hers and play with her fingers

>When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

>When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

>When she looks at you in your eyes
don't look away until she does

>When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers

>When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she's important.
- Don't talk about other girls around her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"


Am I right? So, girls do it! GO!










Angelique.

...

All people has their common needs like money, work and love. Wants like gadgets, jewelries, not useful stuffs and etc. 

 While I was imagining all this things, I thought I could just stop and pick  what ever I want, ask what I want. but I didn't even know how to seek what I want. Sigh... This is one of the reason why our parents taught us when we're young that, "dear, it's not easy to get what you want." and yes it's true and proven. 

 I admit that I'm still young and did not even know what life is. I admit that I can't even stand on my own feet. I still need the total guidance of my parents.

You know what, while I'm having my studies here far away from my place and our only contact with my parents is the internet and phone, it's still not complete because you did not hug them, kiss them, talk to them personally, sleep, laugh and cry with them. Phew!  It's hard for me everyday because I miss my love ones. and the thing that's much harder is that, they were not beside you to help you in what you need (washing clothes, ironing, washing the dishes, and etc.) :p

At first, I did not even think that I could survive this kind of life here. I did not even expect that I will be given this opportunity by God to fullfill my dreams and aspirations. But, home is I'm with when I felt the cold breeze of the air, the un-ending laughs of people around me, the perfect shape of mountains that captivates my heart every time I saw them, and the fine replicas of the cars that reminds me of the busy streets of my hometown. 

I'm very thankful to our Father Almighty for the wondrous gifts that he gave to me and to my family. To my family of being a never ending supporter to me in times of down-fall and grudges. To my friends who were there to influence and helps me to motivate my self in being independent and strong enough. And to all my fans who never failed to support me also. LOL. 

As im ending this, I will wash my clothes, arrange my room and closet, wash dishes and eat. :)

 

Angelique.