Long and Winding Journey...

At last! I had a chance to talk again about my lifeline! 


Well, well, well. For TWO weeks of being busy for the school's event, I felt so relieved that I knew the activity was very successful in spite of all the troubles came up. I was very thankful for all the persons that were there who cooperated and give their undying efforts especially our Student Council President, who have organized the activity. 
Oh! Before I forgot, the school's activity is called "Dinner and Dance" which is done yearly. The said activity is done to make the students be acquainted with each other. It is may be Senior, Junior or Freshman, or an Ex-student. The theme of the activity was "The 70's." Oh Yeah!


So here's what I wore:

Do I look like the 70's? Hell. It's like I'll gonna have a night out with friends at the disco. Heee.

Too much of the Dinner and Dance fever. I'm very proud to say that I'm a student of Asian Tourism International College. 

Lalalala...

November 25, 2011. It's the first time that I met my friend and luckily it's her 20th birthday. It's the first time that we talked and share a lot of things especially or BREAK UP's with our boyfies. 

Weird as I will differentiate it. Both of us were chased, and both of our boyfriends got new girlfriends. See? It fascinates me sometimes if I'll keep on thinking that those things were happening right now. Do they realized their lost? Or the demons were with them to not let us move on? 

How I wish that the past never ends. The day when I thought that I already have him. The day when I already get to know him more. Though sometimes we fought, but we know how to handle those times. I wanna cry sometime when the thing suddenly cross in my mind and I am bewildered again. 

I become weak every time I bid goodbye to him. It's never been easy for me to communicate and hear his voice when I'm with him. I felt jealousy to those who were having a strong and balanced relationship. Even though, not all things are ended happily ever after, but once in their life they learn how to build a relationship that someday, it'll gonna last forever. 

Problems came up... and now, I felt the world is crushing down on me again. I'm bringing forces that burdened me every time I walk, talk or face to people.

Thank God, for giving me a chance to laugh out all those problems, for giving me the courage and strength to continue my journey. God never ceases his love for us, through ups and downs of our daily life. He is there whenever we call.

Please REWIND-PLAY-STOP...

I'm thinking about things since yesterday and last morning until it came up to my mind if I already post another lifeline in my blog. And in the end of this shameful stupidity, I totally forgot.  Darn it!


I'm so busy with in this month. Pressures are on in my weight. I'm carrying it every single day of my life. Surrendering is not really an option. You know I cried lately while I'm making my assignment because my head is aching, my nerves are shaking me, my whole body is never at peace. I want to go to a place where I could sit in silence, with my love one, laughing, talking and forgetting about what are the things that I still need to do. 


Rewinding the part where I'm happy and no pressures at all when I'm still in my high school days, where I said to my self that "Wow, I'm on this game!" I felt tough, my pride is there, I felt like I was on top. I wanna Play those part that I put my self to riches. It's not money that I meant, but rich in love, success and happiness. This was the part where I could say that the best is never only best, but it is the best among the rest. And lastly, I want to Stop the moment where I still could fix the things that I needed to fix. The broken and unfixed situations that put me almost in despair. I wanted to give anything just to have a good fixation of things.


But LIFE must go on. Life is unstable, it's like a river that has no end. The more you play with the river, the more it will give you strong waves. Play life, but don't be abusing. Life may be good, but be ready on its twists. 


ANGELIQUE.

This is Life and I'm Contented About It...

*Guitar strumming, Drums rolling* SING:

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"I have, the time of my life, no I've never felt this way before. Yes I swear, it's the truth and I owe it all to you..." 


I felt so happy all the way, trying to forget everything, the hurts and despairs, the sacrifices and the TRUTH. You know, contentment is naturally accepting whatever life is giving you. Contentment is irresistible and you can't say that every little thing that you've got that you would never be contented on it.


Life itself is giving you chances to strike one more time again. With the highest voltage that you could ever give in and no one will judge you nor gonna stop you. Because they knew you but not your story.
As what my friend said, "Life is sometimes, Wow I did it! But sometimes, okay it's not my turn yet."

ANGELIQUE.

I don't see what I have to offer...

When I feel that days and nights are not good to me, I know that there's something deep or outside me is not at ease. I kept on listening to my heart pounding and it always skips a beat, weird. I don't know if what does this thing means. Because every time I felt like this, something is really happening.

I can't ignore this hidden emotion that I want to burst. I wanna give up. But I'm pity of the ones I love. The trust that they've given me, the love that never ceases, especially their support, not only financially, but physically and emotionally. 

I can't be tough and I can't be strong every time. I wanna be alone for now. I'm finding silence in my heart, my body, my soul and my mind. I want to feel the breath of the earth surpassing my veins, the wind's blowing off of me that made my soul flew all the way. 

I want to find my self again. The Angelique that my friends always says that who's strong enough, the one who never gives up. The one who can never be lifted up by the strongest wind.  

I'm feeling so lost right now in this world that was once I knew that was beautiful and worth living. Life is not very easy to be played of and I can assure you that.

Where's your hand?

I need someone's palm right now. I need to feel someone who could bare with me in this situation. I need to hold on tight. I MUST BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO FIGHT FOR IT.


Emotions are mixing, mashing up on me. Stabbing me on the back. Why is this happening? I'm full of unanswered questions that I know only someone could answer. Honestly, I don't even know how to fight for it. The courage and strength are all flying behind me. I can't even write a good sentence for me to start this post, and I don't know how to end it.


Maybe this is just apart of life's challenges. These challenges for me are there maybe to help make it through. 

I need you NOW...

As far as I remembered, my last money is RM10 and I spend the half of it yesterday. Because of this humbleness I have, I gave the half of it to my boyfie because he asked me if I have something on my wallet.

Now, I have some products here from my mom, and I don't know how to introduce it because nowadays it's very hard to let people believe you. It's a herbal drink in juice form. It can cure hard illnesses like CANCER, GOITER, TUBERCULOSIS, ANEMIA, and all forms of illnesses that you need a doctor to cure you. c:


It's called VITA PLUS.

 If you will buy 1 pack, it will cost you RM5, but if you will buy 1 box (20 packs), I will give it RM90 only. Heeeeeeeeeeeeez!


I you want to have it, just email me in angelkenny0819@gmail.com..available in Kota Kinabalu only. 


I'm looking forward for your emails and comments. Thank you and God bless!




P.S.
To know more information, just email http://www.firstvitaplus.net/






Angelique.